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I feel awful few of you have left comments on my blog and I hardly check them so I just noticed I had some comments!! So sorry I didn't respond!! They are awesome comments and thanks for taking the time to respond to my blog :)

A light a third (almost) a way through the tunnel

I am starting to have good day instead of just bad days!! I feel super relieved!! Now I  usually can go one to two days with out vomiting!! Sorry to be so forward but its true!! I keep having the fear that we will lose our precious little one. So anytime I have a doctors apt and get to either see the baby or hear his or hers little heart beat I feel so happy and giddy!! The knowledge that the baby is good and doing great is the  BEST news a mom to be  can get! which I got to hear today!! :) The nurse was super sweet and let me listen for several minutes!!
I do have super weird, WACKY and some just plain disturbing dreams!! Here is one  of the Wacky ones...
In my dream I had our baby it was a HUGE baby girl I mean like toddle size!! WOW right? Any ways so I remember having this huge new bundle of joy and that didn't worry me until I realized the baby was a few weeks            old and hadn't peed yet? I felt like the worse mother ever!!  How could I not realize she wasn't peeing!? And  that why she was so HUGE!!Any who weird dream right?!
Were getting very excited hopefully I'll start feeling amazing in the next week or two!!I'll keep my fingers crossed!!

Baby Update :)

     Yesterday we went to the doctors again to check on my tear on my uterus. This was Clayton's first time seeing the baby and hearing the heartbeat!! I kept looking over at him to see his smile, It was so sincere and proud!! The baby even did a little summer salt to show off for dad. Clayton later in the car said "Did you see the flip!!" It was awesome and wonderful experience!
     The tear in my uterus is healing but not as fast as I want. I still have to take in even easier and try to get this thing healed. Its just so hard not to do anything, especially if I have a hour ( or more if I'm lucky) a day where I feel good so I try and get everything done super fast. Though I am trying to take it easy.
     They said baby is doing good and actually measuring a couple days ahead of what I thought so i'm actually 11 weeks instead of 10 so yay for surprises!! We couldn't be happier to be pregnant and that the baby is doing so well!!
 

It's Christmas time...

This year I have been SUPER slacking on decorating for Christmas. Any one who knows my family this is a sin!!! It's not that I'm not excited for Christmas or even that I didn't want decorations up. Its  simply that all I could do was go to work and come home and lay on the couch waiting to puke or trying to do anything not to puke. So after weeks of just having my tree sitting in the corner of our living room bare and sad looking my Aunt Linda and her daughter Jen, said enough is enough!! They came over and put my house in shape!!! The tree is done the stockings are hung (I actually did that part :) and my village is lit and set up. This has been done for a little over a week I just barley got around to blogging about it! Any ways I'm so glad I have family who care enough that my Christmas tree wasn't ready and to come help out!!

RIP Pumpkin

     Last November Clayton (whom I begged and pleaded with) and I got our little Fancy mouse Pumpkin. Yes they are called Fancy mice, I'm just not calling her that because she acted fancy ;).  When I saw her I fell in "puppy love" I mean It was when I was super baby hungry and it wasn't time yet.  So of course how do you curb baby hungry-ness? You  get something small and cute. While most people buy kittens or dogs(something they can cuddle) I chose a mouse. While I never got to hold her and coddle her I still babied her and cooed her.For some reason having  something that depends on you really does help with the saddens of not getting pregnant. Clayton never liked the idea of a rodent in our house at all. So i'm sure the news of her death wont bother him to bad.
     I don't why I'm so bothered by her death. Honestly I was trying to get rid of her, because since I got pregnant the smell has been awful. Normally I couldn't smell her because I changed her cage often and had a air freshener sitting  by her cage going 24/7 but now the smell  of the freshener  makes me sick, and Clayton was given  the responsibility of cleaning the cage and he did that not as often as I would. Then one time someone talked about taking her I got emotional! I don't know I guess after having a pet over a year you kinda bond. She always gave me comfort, funny she actually made me feel safe in a sense. This is only because if I heard any noise in the middle of the night I could blame her for it, and now there is no animal to make noise so I am sure I will jump and every little noise tonight.
     Any ways I will miss pumpkin and all her  little quirks! Love you little pumpkin!

 

Sunday Mornings

This morning I woke up feeling amazing!!! Which is amazing all by itself! Plus I woke up to fog! I absolutely love FOG its so beautiful , magical and it puts me in a good mood. So Clayton and I decided to take a Drive out to Utah lake. It was BEAUTIFUL! There were chunks of ice pushed up on the shore. Clayton got me to walk out a little ways. It was so peaceful and quiet. We had fun dancing together and exploring the ice. What a wonderful way to start our Sunday. Unfortunately the feeling amazing part didn't last but the fun and peaceful  memory will!

Our little wiggle worm...

     This morning I woke up to find my self spotting. I started to panic, I started think of the worst thing that could happen which would be that I would lose the most amazing gift that  Heavenly Father has given me. The chance to be a mother. I did what I know is best and called my mother she told me to call the doctors and see what they wanted to do.They decided to have me come in and check on everything.
    While I was waiting for the doctors apt. I got a call from  Clayton telling me that his car was dead, that the transmit ion went out. So on top of worry about our little one I  was now sick to my stomach about having to buy another car!
     My mom and me went to the doctors. The had me get and ultra sound and as she started I could tell she couldn't find the baby, I got very worried that there might not be a baby in there. She asked me to go to the rest room and then we would try a vaginal ultra sound because My uterus tilts to the back and it makes it hard to see the baby. I came back and started to do the ultra sound again (can I just say not very comfortable at all!!!) Any who all the sudden a heartbeat starts! I was confused because I thought you can't hear the heart beat  at 8 1/2 weeks  but since it was a vaginal ultra sound we could!!! Ah that  sound is so amazing!!! Then our little wiggle worm popped on the screen!!! He or she was moving around like there was a party going on!! It was the cutest thing ever!!! That  little wiggle worm already has his or her mommy wrapped around it's tiny little fingers!!!
    I now felt much better knowing that our baby is doing so well The ultra sound technician said that the baby's heart beat sounded great 193 beats per minutes, and the baby was measuring right where it should be :)
     As for the bleeding I have a small tear in my uterus, its normal but I need to take it easy until it heals so that it won't get bigger.
     All in All everything is working out. I just have to have faith that it will work out, Because Heavenly Father is watching out for our little family. I know everything happens for a reason and when its supposed to. I am so grateful for my Heavenly Father who loves me and for my earthly parents who help us out so much!!! :)